Monday, July 6, 2009

Growing Old

Warning this could be considered a "Debbie Downer" post, but its just the way I feel.

Last night in bed Hubs and I were talking about something and I told him he was going to give me a heart attack. He said that I am not supposed to be the first to go. And with those words the bubble popped, I was brought back to the real world.

Sometimes I feel like my life is a dream, not a dream as in everything is good all the time, more like the life I am living is all in my head. Or that I am really someone else looking in on another person's life. I rarely ever think about getting old, but when I do I am afraid of death. I am afraid that when that time comes I won't be ready, that I will leave too much behind. Maybe I feel this way because there are still so many other experiences I have yet to check off my bucket list, so many other feelings I have not felt, so many things I have not seen.

I sometimes wonder what happens to my soul after death, what it will actually feel like to die.

Am I alone on fearing death?

5 comments:

jo said...

Nope, I think about death all the time. My mom says it happens to everyone in their 20's, her advice is go to church and pray lol

♥ Marta ♥ said...

You're not the only, I am terrified of death...and the thinking about it.

agoodbuild said...

you aren't alone in your thoughts. that is why you should live the best life you can and treasure the little things.

Savvy Mode SG said...

you are not alone. death is the unknown, we don't know what is behind door Death.

April said...

I am absolutely terrified by death. I think about it all the time to the point where it stresses me out.